Labels don't stick unless I allow them.
Labels hurt. I allow decisions that another person makes, put me in hard spots that make me question myself. Because of this, as the years have gone by, I have struggled with some insecurity in a certain aspect of my life. It's so painful.
Have I put this person on a higher level than God? If what a person does or doesn't do to me makes me feel insecure, unloved, unwanted, rejected and unworthy am I sinning? I'm not saying people can't hurt you with their words and actions. The pain is deep! But have I forgotten Christ loves me? Have I not realized that I am the vision of His heart (and so are you!)? How can I let another person's actions and words cripple me to a point of insecurity!?! Is another persons opinion of me more important than God's opinion of me? How have I found myself in this position? This low painful position? Why am I scared? God created me! The Creator of the Universe has good works for me! He is with me! His Spirit dwells in me! If I could just dwell and soak that in, If I could just learn to see God is good, Holy and He is with me than how can I feel insecure?
What can I do to fix the feelings of insecurity? Am I believing in Him? Am I relying on Him? Is He number one in my life? Do I get how Holy He is? Do I get He knows me and my every thought? Do I underestimate God?
I need to ask forgiveness of not standing in Him and His love for me! I need to trust in God! Trust in His word! Rest in the love of God. Rest in the cross! There is a Holy Spirit power dwelling within me! God wants to support me. God is so Holy. He is all that matters. All that matters! He will never leave my side. I do not have to fear. I need to get back to the Cross. I need to get back to the simple fact that our Holy God loves me.
I am not an insecure woman but a creation of God who is walking in grace and learning how to be the woman of God I am suppose to be.
Help me Lord to soak in your love for me. Help me to be still in You. Forgive me of putting others and their opinions above You. Help me to better understand who I am in You, Lord. Help me to focus on the cross. Help me to soak in You and rest in You. Heal my brokenness. Heal my pain. Open my eyes, ears, heart and mind to see, hear, feel and think what You want me to. Show me who I am in You. Peel away all that is not of You and change me to be all that You intended me to be. Make me bold! Make me fierce for You! Teach me. Guide me. When I am struck by pain from others, help me to not allow their decisions to bring me to a place of insecurity. Help me to know and feel Your love for me. Remind me of Your love as I seek you. Wrap me in Your arms, Lord. I love you. Change me. Thank you Lord for Your love!! I ask all this in Jesus name, Amen.
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