I feel in this season of my life as if God is on trial.
I have Christ on the stand, and I’m weighing His Words against my circumstances.
I believe we all do that when our circumstances are less than ideal. We’re trying to see if God is trustworthy or faithful, because our lives can look so disarrayed. We wonder where God’s promises are and if He is really able to do what He said.
Is God trustworthy?
However, I’ll be the first to confess that I’ve been doing this all wrong.
You see, when we measure our circumstances against God’s Word, and they don’t line up, we tend to think He is failing. But, what we are missing is that we can’t look at whether or not we feel He’s doing His part, but rather whether or not He’s true to His Word.
We need to try Him on perjury, so to speak.
Did God promise me something He didn’t deliver?
Did God say something untrue?
I came across a few Bible examples of how truthful God has been with us according to His Word:
35 That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.” 36 Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. 37 A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. 38 Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” 39 He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. 40 He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” 41 They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”
We see in Mark 4:35-41 that the storm did not come upon the disciples as a result of Jesus being absent. He was in the boat with them and in the “furious squall”. Jesus put them in the boat and told them to row to the other side. Jesus slept through the storm because He knew they’d make it anyways.
I think we put God on trial and assume that if Jesus was really faithful, we wouldn’t go through any storms. But He never promised us that! In fact, Jesus honestly tells us to expect trials – even more so as believers:
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33
I equate this to a child gaining a nurse’s trust when he’s getting vaccines. If the nurse lies and says, “This won’t hurt at all”, the child is stung twice – once by the sharp pain of the needle, and again by the realization that he has been duped! But knowing that it’s a sharp pain, and it won’t last too long, may help the child trust the nurse and sit still.
And so, it is with this evidence that I have found Jesus to be completely trustworthy – no matter what my circumstances looks like. Because He has told me the truth; His faithfulness to me is not displayed by the absence of trouble but rather by His comfort and guidance through the trials. The world is running exactly how He said it would, and He is doing in my life exactly what He promised He would.
Today, I encourage you to take your burdens to the Lord in prayer. Even if your burden is a little bit of doubt, or some unbelief. He can handle being put on trial! He can handle our questions, our “Why me?!”
Sometimes we’re afraid to “offend God”, but His love for us is strong enough to handle these honest discussions… And these honest discussions is where our faith may grow the most!
Maria is 30 years old, happily married homeschooling mom of three kids, and owner of a cute little Corgi dog. She lives in Anchorage, Alaska. She shares about her faith, homeschooling, family, and fitness at her blog, Confessions of a First Timer. You can follow Maria on her blog Confessions First, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and Pinterest.